So we still talk on and off some times on the phone other times through messages, but I finally saw him after several months and we talked for an hour. It was good to see him, but at the same time was really awkward for me. I didnt know what he was thinking. I wanted him to make some type of move, but then I didnt. I guess I just really wanna know how he feels about me because sometimes I feel like he's flirting with me and I like it, but at the same time i dont wanna hope for something that wont turn out. He's a really sweet guy, which is someone that I need in my life...well it doesnt have to be him...lol i mean a sweet person in general, really cool to be around, and he might even be the reason that im listening to certain types of artists...but i didnt just admit that...lol. Anyways, I thought I was doing ok about everything until I saw him. Then it hit me...well after we talked . I was talking to a friend on the way home and we were talking about him and how good of a job i did finding him...lol anyways I think she could tell how much I really miss something...not sure what exactly it is, but she could tell and with all that i shed a few tears. Prolly the first tears since the day after everything...lol. But i thought I did a good job preparing myself for the face to face.

 

Damn Regret The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus lyrics

Artist: The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus Album: Don't You Fake It Year: 2006 Title: Damn Regret

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The moon is shining bright
The mood is feeling right
I'll kiss you on your neck
People will stare but we won't care

We're high above the ground
We're nowhere to be found
Empowered by adrenaline
Feel I've been born again

Again, I am repeating myself
And I know it is kind for you
To sit and pretend

[Chorus:]
Damn regret, I'll try to forget
Don't worry about me 'cause I'm refined
Cast my line to see what's behind
Did you think you'd persuade me to let you go?

I'm wishing you were here
My weakness is my fear
Alone I am myself
No reason left for me to care

Distracted by the sound
I hear footsteps all around
Empowered by adrenaline
Feel I've been born again

Again, I am repeating myself
And I know it is kind for you
To sit and pretend

[Chorus]

You're the only one I turn to
When I feel like no one's there
And when I'm lonely in my darkest hour
You give me the power
To sit and pretend

[Chorus]

Did you think I'd forget?
Did you think I'd surrender myself to persuade you to let me go?
Did you think I'd forget?
Did you think I'd surrender myself to persuade you to let me go?

So I just want to start off saying that I had a great weekend. Friday we (the delta theta's) went to the Apple Festival to watch Jenny sing. Then after that we came back to Holly and Laura's place to party with our alumni that came in. Wow did I get drunk...lol. But hey it was good. Saturday well that sucked b/c i only had 3 hours of sleep and I had to sit through the All Greek Conference. Then last night i just did some things around my room and did some homework. Today, didnt do too much but watch FOOTBALL!!! and let me just say Im so happy because the Steelers got beat by the BENGALS!! OH yea and the BRONCOS won too. Im not a bengals fan but I hate the steelers so that made me happy today. But I am a broncos fan and I was happy that i got see a game...haven't seen one in forever b/c we normally dont  get the games here. Well this girlie is off to bed!!